i dont understand

i dont get anything anymore
i dont know why things happen the way that they do.
i wish i knew.
why do you make my head spin?
why do you make me shake?
fuck you.

i feel so weird

i might be okay with not seeing you.
i feel like, this thing might be going away.
i don't know how to feel about it though.

it's weird
i need for you to initiate conversation for once. just once. maybe i would know what's going on with me then.