my name is teresa and ....

i'm addicted to being in love with people who are unattainable.

i don't know where i stand with you and i don't know what i mean to you all i know is that every time i think of you all i want to do is be with you.


sums up my entire life

my open letter to you...

i do not get you whatsoever.
stop talking to me, it would make my life so much easier. go get married. have a baby. i don't care. join the army..........no wait. please don't. move to alaska or hawaii. preferably hawaii so you can be tan. you look nice when you're tan. don't come back and talk to me if you have a girlfriend and you know that i liked/like/love you. don't have an awesome girlfriend and be cute with her. please don't move to long island over the summer. please come back with some feelings towards me. don't let me know that i mean nothing to you. i would go to your funeral if you died, but don't die any time soon. i would die too. please make up your mind by this time next year. don't change when i possibly come back for college. i want you to stay the same. don't ever get nice. i love that you're an asshole and a douchebag. i want to run my fingers along your tattoos. i want you to be my inspiration for my first tattoo. maybe you already are. i want you to be a constant in your life. i want to work with you, as a partner and a friend and as whatever else you'll give to me. i want to know that you'll be there no matter what happens. i want you to be a solid, not moving fixture in my life. give me something to work with, anything. i'll take it openly. please give me back some of what i give you.

that's when i knew that i could never have you. i knew that before you did, still i'm the one whos stupid..

i don't know why my emotions are so fucked up right now. it sucks really badly.
but i'm kinda alright with you never being with me.. i can still want it to happen right?

yeah.. i guess.