you confuse me so bad.

the end

so i should have known

that life wouldn't be all that i thought it would be.
nothing turns out good at all
and like, i don't know why i thought it would but i did.
and i lead myself on, and i hate it
i do it all the fucking time and i don't understand why i do it
but i guess i just wanted it so bad that i let it take me over

i hate doing this to myself.
fuck

;]

i need you to believe me when i say i want all of you.

so so so bad

balalalalalalalalala

i want to fuck you.

i wanna show you how it (should) end[s]

last night, i felt like i was going to cry.
i don't know if i can stand to be without you for so long.
honestly i have no idea what i'm going to do
i might be a bit overdramatic, but who isn't?
you make me feel so good, i have no idea why but when i'm around you i feel like everything will be okay. even if i know that it won't
you're a big asshole, and you know it. and i love it. and you might know that too.
you confuse the living shit out of me, i can't seem to read you.
there's something about you that i can't figure out.
i want to be with you
in any way, shape, form that i can.
and i know that it might be wrong, but it would be so good.

when you're gone.

todays the last day i'm going to see you.
for a while.
and i don't know what i'm going to do with myself.
i'm not even kidding, it's gonna be like withdrawl.
you're my drug and i'm addicted.

i hate you.
so fucking much
i want you to die, and i want to be the person who kills you.

no one knows except the both of us

i want you.

smoke rings drift into the midnight sky

i love how you're the biggest dick to me ever, but theres something about you.
something about you that makes me want to fuck the shit out of you.
and i'm a brutally honest person.

but you say you only make fun of the people that you like.
you confuse the living shit out of me
and i love it.

:]